Saturday, June 25, 2022

Please don't ask






     “I believe that if one fathoms deeply

      one’s own neighborhood and the everyday

      world in which he lives, the greatest of worlds

      will be revealed.”


                         —Masanobu Fukuoka

                             “ The One Straw Revolution”



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The moon, 

against the blue,

ghost-brushed half 

high to the south.


Hard-pack turning to dust. 

Pearly-everlasting, buckeye.  


And those petals, tiny purple, aside the trail, 

asking for a name 

for them to try. 



**



Breathing. Quiet still-points

over clean spread pages.


Morning’s light taking pen’s black 

to crisp blue lines.




**



—“November 3rd”


Sitting in my room,

naming our favorite pieces, 

hers the cut-paper figure

leaning into the winds.


I speak of Miyazawa,

his work, inspiration, read aloud

this poem so important for me


and wonder 

what else I’ve not shared 

over the years.



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Late May


Light follows us now, 

lingers evenings longer,

waits for us in mornings,

our eyes opening with it there,

doing its business, leaving us to ours

—leaving us, mornings like this, 

like naked, exposed—no pressure,

no suggestions on its part, 

of anything other than

that which may come to us

at times like this, when so very much 

may well be allowed.



**



a muffled bump

from the kitchen

reminds me—love,

at times, neither heard,

nor spoken



**



I get to see 


this grey morning,

this woodpecker, 


before he starts his work,

as he hops the long arm of the pine


and is gone. 



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“First let us together turn into zillions

     of glittering particles in the cosmos and scatter

        into the directionless sky”

                                           —Kenji Miyazawa

                                  


A poem to Maxine


so, if we are of atoms, atoms,

then we’re never just one, we’re never alone,

it’s the space in-between

that allows   us


if we are atoms, we’re forever together,

it’s the space in between that attracts us,


if we’re atoms


mother to father to child-daughter 

to sister to friend—always friends


it’s the space in-between that allows


learner to teacher, friend to lover to wife 

to husband to mother to children


to grandmother loving

and always soft-spoken friend


all the whiles, the before’s, all the afters,

always the space that allows—


if we are of atoms, then touch knows no bounds

and smiles share substance with tears,


if we are atoms, our skin dreams of ashes, 

our absence sings songs 

of what’s very much 

here


where we’re never just one, but always together 

in the whole of the space that allows,


in the zillions of particles that glitter forever

in the home of our very own skies



**



The west facing point of my neighbor’s rooftop

that overlooks the valley and opposing hillsides

is a particular favorite of local mocking birds,

who perch, dance and sing there, day after day.


I have to remember to thank my neighbor too.



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One hundred years ago this year

Kenji Miyazawa began writing the first of multiple

volumes of poems I sit reading today.


In less than one hundred years from now,

the snow pack in mountain ranges that run

the length of western North America will be gone.



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         “To know is to get lost.”


                           —Nanao Sakaki



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Thinking, in the quiet—then rain,

dropping, on the roof, in pools

on wooden decking, freely dropping, 

boundless dropping, washing 

thinking away…



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Translucent—the leaves

of the maple glow in themselves

in sunlight.




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In the vase on the altar,

the bending yellow rose,

doing its part.



**



Deep in walking-thought,

when buckeye blossoms,


topping distant trees, reach in,

pull me out, to meet.



**



Windows pulled open all night

now hold court in the quiet perfection

of morning simply arrived, silent presence

something to widen into, along with 

all else widening here too.



**



Well before the sun finds its place

in the sky, light lets us know it’s coming.


Cold air or warm, it’s shadow 

that announces its arrival.


Monday, June 6, 2022

Poems from the month of May





May 15—Point Arena


north-coast morning fogs so thick

I remove my glasses to see


the rutted trail cross open fields


     wildflowers


  jutting here and there 

          

          gathered shadows

   

     of pines 

            

              dripping 



**



she comes out of the bedroom,

sits down against me

real close, warm


—fifty-five years



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Miner’s lettuce, full blossomed,

smothers the magnolia’s understory.


So many, the m’s, couldn’t resist…



**



on the coastal road coming in,


bunch after bunch of purple-white lupine

and golden poppies


scattered on the bluffs,

watch the ocean



**



North-country coastal fogs—

fence-post crow-shadows shiver,

pasture wildflowers flash.



**



Buried under layers of coastal fog,

the lunar eclipse happened as if

we weren’t even there; but this morning,

blue sky and sunlight so bright, 

even ocean-covered rocks 

push through tides 

to see.



**



Fort Bragg


Standing on wind-swept shoreline, 

unobstructed views for miles, reading

of redwood groves, here, 

taken cove by cove.



**



Report back:


Because our feet cover it, it sometimes seems

we cannot see the earth’s irrepressible transitions

to life and back again, it and its universe 

the shared commonwealth of being and beings, 

which ripples, revels and whispers 

its endless presences—to us, 

through our manifold natural and endlessly open 

portals of awareness and attention—and in us, 

through the often overlooked and misused wonder

of humans, our words, whose inner mapping magic

signals to us our own thinking and feeling,

allows an untellable intimacy with each other

and the world…


from Emerson’s “Nature”


“…as water to our thirst, so is rock, the ground,

to our eyes, our hands and feet…firm water,…

cold flames… what health, what affinity.”


                    Emerson again


“ Other-world? there is no other world; here

or nowhere is the whole fact.”


                    and again


“…this is home—iron in our blood, a transit

of minerals ourselves…”


                        

**



Three-needled pine, meadows

of open Iris, bluffs of pink buckwheat

and the lighthouse to the north

sending winds so strong, 

legs are rendered unsteady.


Truly not knowing my real place here,

I plant my feet with what care I can,

try to share what I think I see

and to ask more than to say.



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Miner’s Hole Road


After awhile, the trail folds over itself

and me—mud and fallen trees, unyielding, 

so cross-country, up the creased-grass trail 

I now know goats use—a survey of the hills,

close-by coastline—the satisfactions 

of jumped barbed wire and a climbed gate.

But most of all, the furtive glance 

of a mom and her kid disappearing 

behind the rocks—and just how good 

some things make you feel.



**



A tic (has it been sixty years?) burrowed 

into my shoulder—had to pull it out

with tweezers—I know, I know, 

not tweezers—but there’s not enough 

room for us both.



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Hiked the edge of the neighboring flood-plain,

acres of farmland coming to meet the ocean.


Watershed rich, the trail flows with flora,

wild berries slowly reaching for ripe.



**



Last morning manifesto


On my last walk of our visit here, 

a new trail for next time—walked


into the rising sun—coffee on the deck,

tiny puffs of seed-life floating by…   


Thursday, May 19, 2022

Ordinary days....





Along the top

of the metal front-yard fence,


three small birds

glide to flutter and perch,


a woodpecker’s distant work,

glances of light


of the rising sun, clear blue

and cold, cold fingers


and all that comes of that.



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Seems I’ve gotten serious lately,

finding reasons, explanations


for all kinds of things: this yes, that no.

Then out of the blue, for whatever reason,


I find myself reciting, no, bubbling

Buddha’s name…like my life 


just wanted it…so there it was. 

Like that, lips remembering 


for me.



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In the garden in evening,

just as dark begins to make claim,

air too crisp for insects, sky too hazy

to show the stars, I pour beer

for squash-loving snails, 


just one of the many ways 

the world turns under human feet,

these in particular below the legs 


of an old man worrying daily

over seemingly precious leaves


and who mumbles to himself 

time to time,


of some seeming wisdom found 

in old Lu Yu’s old poem line:


“An old-timer is just a worn-out child.” 



**



Feet to the pavement,

pen to the page, poems

do come of these,


let no one tell you different,


nor anyone ever say

the poem can be caught

either way.



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Take care to not take too much care, 

a friend once told me, that too much effort

often shrouds what’s already being done.

Ego’s slippery slope, leaning toward itself,

freedom’s likely the other way.



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The old man in the photo

stands with hat in hand in a field

of high grasses in wind, thinking,


as we two have together 

for years now, never feeling 

the need to speak.



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A dove rises from the sun-lit bush,

clean-grey fluttering wings

waking me from a dream


—asleep on my feet.



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—a day-song


long-standing routines lose grip

like wind-stripped leaves, 


like early spring jacaranda 

making way for lavender bouquets


Sunday, May 8, 2022

Motel dreams--are we ever "away" ?

 





light seeps, no sound, into the room

it fills, rising in me its name, heard-said,

remembered even, maybe, more on the lips,

its trace the taste of breath along the tongue,

wholesome full word-thought textures,

intimacies of human consciousness of

human experience: threaded melodies, 

at their best, of the larger concert, at their worst, 

of tangled torment, pushing the boundaries

of torture: either way and both ways unfolding

the truth for us in the moment at hand

articulating: either and both, the contents-

foundations of poetry, of the dharma 

of buddha’s many names, many ways:

and of this, in this, the depths and scope 

of the what and the well-spring of “we”: 

that each is always of the all, that 

there is no one apart from, only ones a part of, 

no thing passing beyond this net of reach: 

un-articulated isn’t un-noticed, isn’t not

there, not taken in, and every heard-said-

telling glance or touch or sounding is one

rippled sharing told-heard throughout:

and as it is with rising light, as so as such 

it is with the rest of things, of phenomena: 

of the rock, the breath, the wind and skin,

the dust, the sand and the stretching reach

of the oceans and stars, all at work

in movements of association, relations, mutual,

untiring: where nothing more is needed, 

nothing more need be done, where no one 

thing is more special than 

the breath-giving, breath-taking, ever-on-going 

making-unfolding of the whole, where 

as humans we get to hear the songs as sung 

through us, and to sing along 

with all our comings 

and goings:



**



“In my wildest imagination, I couldn’t

               imagine you.”

                                     —Keb’ Mo’



Who would you say that to ?



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A poet I once knew liked solitude

and slowing down, tried to cultivate

loving presence (emphasis mine).


Intuitively, he knew presence 

is what we already are—I mean, 

check it out 


next time you wake up:

already there.


But the love—sometimes, 

sometimes not—after awhile, 

he got so divided, he gave up trying


and let go—there it was.



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The periphery

resonates happening

barely discernible, yet

as real as the rest—


at the edges, just off-surface, 

there but lifted, undeniable, but only

almost—like light passing 

closed eyes, the curl of voice,

tilt of a head, 


presence so intimate

only pointing tells—and even then,

not really.



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Laguna Canyon


A large willow

blocks late-falling sunlight,

chills day’s wind-soaked afterglow,

calling shadows too early

and fretting leaves to dapple.

Well to the west of the canyon’s run,

beyond the creased and rolling slopes,

ocean’s horizon waits 

the patient decline.



**



Visiting the son and family,

I wake early

and can’t understand

why I can’t see

out the window,

until three hours later,

waking again,

and it’s now light outside.


Easter morning.



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The canyon slowly peels 

its dark blanket, rugged rock

and brush naked clean, calm

under ocean fog—passing cars

calling distant waves, chimes silent,

limbs, leaves quiet, still—prayers

waiting to waken.



**



Crenshaw Blvd., LA


First sun spills

onto the motel parking lot,


tells me out is east—for now, 

not the west always talked about.



**



On the morning of

the daughter-in-law’s

fifty-third, a thinly feathered seed

floats almost invisible

just above the paved road

my feet meet, lungs drawing

freely from passing winds too.



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Spring brings big winds here

on the peninsula between the bay

and the Pacific—they run

the inland hills over and down

in whirls of fury, then cease

in mornings like this clear quiet 

bowl of contentment.


Our eldest recently wondered

aloud with us at all his life has offered,

as we two watched his matured face

and continued to wonder at the wonders

life has brought us.




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From here and there,

even in the low hills round here,

San Francisco’s skyline,

those taller monstrosities

that didn’t exist

when I first arrived.

But early mornings,

when they catch all they can

of the rising sun

and have the balls

to shine it back, I almost,

can almost, forgive them.



**



If everything ever

happens in the only way it can

in circumstances at hand,

how do we know spontaneity

and habit from one another,

and even if we think we do, know

we’re right?


Some might say—I’m thinking

right now anyway—that question

is far more telling than any answer

maybe coming our way. 



**



The flicker of delight

in doing


is all that’s needed


to make it all

worthwhile.



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There, for instance,

the colors, lay there 

just outside

along the fence

in the still light chill 

left behind by night time 

winds,


petals, 


the imperceptible 

hum of living vitality,

waiting no thing,

no one, even the sun,


which will be taken, 

as, if, given—


living happens unto death, 

with no one target, 

no near, no far—


just the hum, draws us along,

the hum of multi-voiced question,

asking, testing, tuning, re-tuning 

to the next-come variation.


We hear it. We respond.



**



Mills Creek, Mills Canyon


The big old bay still drinks

the rush of the stream’s trickling, 

its trunk long torn and broken, 

thick limbs lying across the trail, 

still reaching to the canopy 

for open sky, where birds 

still fly by.



**



The hills rise precipitously

where the road arcs sharply

down along the lower canyon

rim, where the stream runs

fast most winters—above the trees,

rock outcrops and green blush

lingering in the grasses.


Breeze and wind weave and shiver

as like from the unending troubles

we make in the world, silence,

as always, biding its time.