Sunday, May 8, 2022

Motel dreams--are we ever "away" ?

 





light seeps, no sound, into the room

it fills, rising in me its name, heard-said,

remembered even, maybe, more on the lips,

its trace the taste of breath along the tongue,

wholesome full word-thought textures,

intimacies of human consciousness of

human experience: threaded melodies, 

at their best, of the larger concert, at their worst, 

of tangled torment, pushing the boundaries

of torture: either way and both ways unfolding

the truth for us in the moment at hand

articulating: either and both, the contents-

foundations of poetry, of the dharma 

of buddha’s many names, many ways:

and of this, in this, the depths and scope 

of the what and the well-spring of “we”: 

that each is always of the all, that 

there is no one apart from, only ones a part of, 

no thing passing beyond this net of reach: 

un-articulated isn’t un-noticed, isn’t not

there, not taken in, and every heard-said-

telling glance or touch or sounding is one

rippled sharing told-heard throughout:

and as it is with rising light, as so as such 

it is with the rest of things, of phenomena: 

of the rock, the breath, the wind and skin,

the dust, the sand and the stretching reach

of the oceans and stars, all at work

in movements of association, relations, mutual,

untiring: where nothing more is needed, 

nothing more need be done, where no one 

thing is more special than 

the breath-giving, breath-taking, ever-on-going 

making-unfolding of the whole, where 

as humans we get to hear the songs as sung 

through us, and to sing along 

with all our comings 

and goings:



**



“In my wildest imagination, I couldn’t

               imagine you.”

                                     —Keb’ Mo’



Who would you say that to ?



**



A poet I once knew liked solitude

and slowing down, tried to cultivate

loving presence (emphasis mine).


Intuitively, he knew presence 

is what we already are—I mean, 

check it out 


next time you wake up:

already there.


But the love—sometimes, 

sometimes not—after awhile, 

he got so divided, he gave up trying


and let go—there it was.



**



The periphery

resonates happening

barely discernible, yet

as real as the rest—


at the edges, just off-surface, 

there but lifted, undeniable, but only

almost—like light passing 

closed eyes, the curl of voice,

tilt of a head, 


presence so intimate

only pointing tells—and even then,

not really.



**



Laguna Canyon


A large willow

blocks late-falling sunlight,

chills day’s wind-soaked afterglow,

calling shadows too early

and fretting leaves to dapple.

Well to the west of the canyon’s run,

beyond the creased and rolling slopes,

ocean’s horizon waits 

the patient decline.



**



Visiting the son and family,

I wake early

and can’t understand

why I can’t see

out the window,

until three hours later,

waking again,

and it’s now light outside.


Easter morning.



**



The canyon slowly peels 

its dark blanket, rugged rock

and brush naked clean, calm

under ocean fog—passing cars

calling distant waves, chimes silent,

limbs, leaves quiet, still—prayers

waiting to waken.



**



Crenshaw Blvd., LA


First sun spills

onto the motel parking lot,


tells me out is east—for now, 

not the west always talked about.



**



On the morning of

the daughter-in-law’s

fifty-third, a thinly feathered seed

floats almost invisible

just above the paved road

my feet meet, lungs drawing

freely from passing winds too.



**



Spring brings big winds here

on the peninsula between the bay

and the Pacific—they run

the inland hills over and down

in whirls of fury, then cease

in mornings like this clear quiet 

bowl of contentment.


Our eldest recently wondered

aloud with us at all his life has offered,

as we two watched his matured face

and continued to wonder at the wonders

life has brought us.




**



From here and there,

even in the low hills round here,

San Francisco’s skyline,

those taller monstrosities

that didn’t exist

when I first arrived.

But early mornings,

when they catch all they can

of the rising sun

and have the balls

to shine it back, I almost,

can almost, forgive them.



**



If everything ever

happens in the only way it can

in circumstances at hand,

how do we know spontaneity

and habit from one another,

and even if we think we do, know

we’re right?


Some might say—I’m thinking

right now anyway—that question

is far more telling than any answer

maybe coming our way. 



**



The flicker of delight

in doing


is all that’s needed


to make it all

worthwhile.



**



There, for instance,

the colors, lay there 

just outside

along the fence

in the still light chill 

left behind by night time 

winds,


petals, 


the imperceptible 

hum of living vitality,

waiting no thing,

no one, even the sun,


which will be taken, 

as, if, given—


living happens unto death, 

with no one target, 

no near, no far—


just the hum, draws us along,

the hum of multi-voiced question,

asking, testing, tuning, re-tuning 

to the next-come variation.


We hear it. We respond.



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Mills Creek, Mills Canyon


The big old bay still drinks

the rush of the stream’s trickling, 

its trunk long torn and broken, 

thick limbs lying across the trail, 

still reaching to the canopy 

for open sky, where birds 

still fly by.



**



The hills rise precipitously

where the road arcs sharply

down along the lower canyon

rim, where the stream runs

fast most winters—above the trees,

rock outcrops and green blush

lingering in the grasses.


Breeze and wind weave and shiver

as like from the unending troubles

we make in the world, silence,

as always, biding its time.


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