Tuesday, November 22, 2022

The all I'm finding

 



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from William Everson’s “The Poet is Dead,

     a memorial to Robinson Jeffers


     When fog comes again to the canyons

     The redwoods will know what it means.


     The giant sisters

     Gather it into their merciful arms

     And stroke silence.



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Morning fogs collect western ridges,

conceal shifting constellations,

tumble tree-lined canyons,

halt and hover 

over the waiting 

valley floor.  



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After fumbling around a lot

the last few years, I finally find

the form to request another twenty


is all blanks—no questions, 

no multiple-choice answers 

to check,


  so I look up to Orion’s song

  of the joys of morning chill,


    I turn to Diablo, who shadows the east

    so the sun will find the day


      and they say,

      

        if you simply remember these simple givens,

        you’ll never need no one else

        to tell you your way.



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“Did he just read a poem,” someone asked

of William Stafford, “I thought he was just talking,”


which of course was what he wanted, to follow

the words, their working taking him, telling him into 

the world from which they came,


heading wherever they might go, rubbing 

comfortably in the warmth of that which had not 

or could not yet be told—you know, just talk.



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The guy in the movie

we learn at the end

is terminally ill,


spending his days 

drinking beer on a beach

in the sun.


I ask how one can spend

one’s last days like that,

while, though not ill,


definitely terminal, I sit on a couch 

sipping wine in the dark, watching 

some other guy die.



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The raptures in our lives pass, do of course 

pass and life makes its way 


impressed with their passing

nonetheless so.


Earth remembers us and we it—star dust 

doesn’t just disappear.



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I sit looking out the large back window

of our morning quiet home, 


at the hills, disappearing night time lights, 

slow-spreading haze—latent vows, 


imbedded intentions resurfaced, 

re-articulated, new 


in sun-lit now—how, how to live 

the here-given—


all other considerations, 

distraction.



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Is it the hills

that through the night

hold the light

the sun comes for,


the hills that rise

to meet our climbing feet

through the misted air

of morning,


is it the hills 

that trace the songs

that shape our hearts

to hold the hurting world ?


Indeed.



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The first thing

I notice,


the willows’

leaves turning,


baring limbs

reaching out


to the sky

that holds us—


may I never 

forget this way.



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Buckeye Canyon


Two small birds

sweep the path,

make the way

for walking 

clear ahead.


I accept

the welcome,

continue—


the canyon’s

open mouth

takes me in,

as I am,


giving me

everything

it has, is,

asking nothing 

in return.



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11/8 Firth Creek


Election day reprieve—

we loose the lunar eclipse

to rain-singing creeks.



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Rain drops to my face,

eye-lids blinking wet

like flapping pant legs,

splashing boots—cold fingers

clutching poncho edges

for un-given warmth—rain drops

on my face, making smiles.



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For David Schooley


Low in the hills, the steady lift 

of freeway streams rise with the rush 

of a passing train, neither of which 

were here when oaks lined the bay

and marshlands reached deeply 

into the valley.


But the hills, the hills persevere, with help

of course—Hummingbird and Coyote

both staying behind for that. 



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Light well-precedes the sun, moon 

lingers high and fully to the west.

And cold-charged maples

grow crimson.


Taking refuge with the stone Buddha 

who sits at the fence beneath the almond tree,  

chanting joined by Thursday garbage trucks.



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Chaparral broom


Coyote bush

pushes tiny brush blossoms,

bright white in grey-green,


to signal coming winter

to grasses turning 

brown-beige.


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