Tuesday, July 13, 2021

Searching words for what I'm thinking

 




San Luis Obispo



Travel begins—first,

getting ready begins first

with that first cup.


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calling to flora 

by name, nodding to others,

leaning in, to listen 


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Sun’s rise lifts the chill.

A new neighborhood rolls out,

as if from under…


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I think: collecting

random haiku from poets

who don’t think they are.


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Shadows scratch shingles.

Towering in the backyard,

figs, avocado.


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So quiet the house,

even passing traffic whispers.


Light fills walls white, 

hardwood floors blond

with warmth.


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We talk without masks.

The waitress pours coffee, the cream,

speaks of promised heat.



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Orange County sun rises gold,

flashes east facing windows

before dressing the day.



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Dog owners here walk

at sunrise, carry cell phones,

not plastic baggies.



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Palm trees sweep the clouds,

make room for traffic-hum…



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—Wayfarer Hotel, LA


Silent, sunlight creeps  

beneath the shade, strokes woodgrains,

climbs the painted frame.


But street sounds, just rise, enter 

and spread, however they will.



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Instant coffee, a spoon,

sweets on a tray by the stove.

Son’s wife, a daughter.



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Family dinner talk

carries textures that sustain

long term. Bits and pieces missed,

not real loss. Ask the old man,

quietly drinking it in.



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Though actually chilly, 

morning windows stay open.


Sounds stay distant, small.

Silence lets them pass.



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Palm fonds say 

sky says

clouds say 

no rain 

so softly

birds say 

get closer.



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Journal on the knee,

penmanship better—maybe

even poems made.



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Pen’s ink starts to dry,

tip falter—I write faster,

press the heart of it.



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A dove’s double-count staccato 

echos—out there: buildings, 

empty space.



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Nembutsu slips in, it does,

quietly opened surface revealing

lingering presences.



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poet-priest, poet

as priest rendered so

in the sanctity of speech


—no office gifted, none held—


temporary vessel,

worded mystery

pointing always 


beyond itself




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Carlsbad


The ice-maker makes

cold water, cools lips and throat

—groans, but no rattles.


No air conditioning. Fans 

and open windows remind us.


Tomatoes are sold

around the corner, ants build

in sidewalk cracks, and


people plant trees—magnolia,

maple, with little hanging balls.


Yards are mostly dry.

Birds skitter, gather, scatter.

Rabbit habitat.


Short-ears, white tails and rumps.

Crows poke at the one on the road.


Grey-haired people jog

the hill top—the grey ocean,

from here, all silence.



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Trains tell us they’re here.

No one in particular,

but everyone knows.



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Like clock work, the world

gives us all it has, every time,

like it or not.



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Mostly, just like that,

it goes clicking along,

life here listening

to little life noises

over there, 


the life there, 

so much mine,

the clicking, 

there or here,

the same.



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Morning sky cool grey.

The woman walks the dog—we,

all three share rain drops.



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Quietly, the clock clocks.

A train passes opened blinds,

orange trees—awake.


Sleep seen for what it is or was,

is waking to now not missed.



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Why regret

  my religion

     has moved me


beyond itself

 —wasn’t that

      always the point ?



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Even when left to ourselves,

every choice is made


in relation to, in concert with

all other makings, ever—


rest here a bit, see what this says

that might come to words


found sufficient to satisfy

this,


then, then listen

to what your heart says


to this—say that.



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The ocean hangs there

just below the horizon,

deeper shades of grey

looking up at the sky’s

looking back, like me—

we three.



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The blinds, angles slight,

catch deflected light, keeping

quiet in the room.



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Angels—a signal

on the screen, if believed, mean

everything’s different.



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Fog drips the streets dim

with grey layered screens, strange

rooms not entered yet.



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Stepping out altered,

versions of our old worlds

seeping pandemic cracks.



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Why this seems crucial,

these tracks made, so few will see,

I truly can’t say.


A trusted teacher once asked

how it all works, didn’t know.



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First jacaranda 

blossoms make their way to light

lavender branch tips.



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Rippling breezes

gather the blossoms to dance

to their own music.



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The wife complains of cold.

My feet feel welcome chill. Who

controls the window?



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The sun breathes deeper

than morning breezes—clouds reach

for the afternoon.



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The religious mind

is no more mine than breath is—

given, given back.



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The crystalline creek

flows a wrinkled clarity

become smooth when stone.



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At this juncture, words

aloud seem much too heavy—

but tongue still ripples.



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Having just arrived—

is how it feels, but the chair

is warm, my cup right there.



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Foolish old man thinks

it’s the same walk every day,

thinks he’s the same too,

yet doesn’t think it odd flowers

come to bloom and whither gone.



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Is that sky’s quiet

or mountain’s


or simply a mistake

to attempt to name?



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If Buddha’s presence

is a given, who is it

that keeps popping up?



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Despite all my wandering and doubt,

life’s central intent,


to bring every existence

to fullest fruition,


at work all the time.